What a day!

So today was a rough day...as a matter of fact this was a rough week. Negative forces have been trying their hardest to break me and down and destroy the person that I am and strive to be. Through all of that I am just thinking to myself that the best thing is for me to press on. To continue to climb my way out of a hole that was created for me but not by me.

So of course when something is weighing heavily on my mind I turn to music to help me refocus. I kept listening to this particular song and I realized why I have had such a tough time lately. It is because when you lose something you have to mourn for it. You have accept that it is gone and will never come back or be the same again. After you mourn for it you have to learn from it and move on.

My life is not perfect but it is so much better than so many others. I have the power to flip the switch whenever I feel that something is not right. I have to flip the switch and change the channel to the one that motivates me. I am there now. I get it and I am so blessed to have embraced the changes in my life. Everyday is not a sunny day, there will be storms. All I ask is that the people in my life love me through my pain and keep me close.

The people that I surround myself with are the people that provide inspiration, courage, and support. Although I know how to lean on myself and God for support, those people have been put into my life for a reason. So when you see my light is waning and not shining as bright as it usually is, shine yours on me for a minute. I will draw from its power and recharge my internal battery and my light will shine at its maximum brightness again.

The lyrics playing in my head are:

Brandy- Right Here
When your life is going to fast,
off the train tracks
I can slow it down, oh
just when you think your bout to turn back
scared you might crash
I'll be your ground, oh

Oh when you feel your hearts guarded,
And you see the brakes started,
And when the clouds above Departed,
You'll be right here with me,
And when your tears are dry from crying,
And when the worlds turned silent,
So when the clouds above Departed,
You will be right here with me

Jazmine Sullivan - After the Hurricane
Baby I'm not surprised, Oh I You said just what I thought you would
And it hurts I ain't gon' lie oh I But it doesn't hurt as bad as it look
Cause when the tears start flowin' and the wind starts blowin'
That's how you know it's comin' for you
When the rain start fallin' and you feel the pain comin'
That's how you know it's comin' for you (hey baby)
Just like a hurricane, just like a hurricane, the way you break everything that comes in your way
Just like a hurricane, Just like a hurricane, the way you broke my heart and now I'm left with the pain
After the hurricane
Now my life is shattered, and I'm left to pick up the pieces
And find a new beginning and put it back together again
After the hurricane, the hurricane

Robin Thicke - Complicated
I wish I could loseAll of my blues
I wish I could stopPuttin my blues on u
I wish I could love
Like nobody loves
I wish that my goods
Outweighed my bads enough

Kanye West - Love Lockdown
I'm not loving you, the way I wanted to
What I had to do, had to run from you
I'm in love with you but the vibe is wrong
And that haunted me, all the way home
So you never know, never never know,
Never know enough, 'til it's over love'
Til we lose control, system overload
Screamin' "No! No! No! N-No!"
I'm not loving you, the way I wanted to
See I wanna move, but can't escape from you
So I keep it low, keep a secret code
So everybody else don't have to know

So keep your love locked down
Your love locked down
Keepin' your love locked downYour love locked down
Now keep your love locked down
Your love locked down
Now keep your love locked down
You lose